Honestly, I’m not sure what to say, how to prompt readers to give me their undivided attention for long enough to say something, anything rather, that would establish myself as a respected writer with material worth reading. I will say that I have spent quite some time investigating what people within my reach are willing to pour their own time and effort into reading and writing and boy, do I feel out of place …
See the thing is, what is it that I even want to say in the first place? Whats the point right? I originally got into blogging because I liked the atmosphere and community, which I first discovered around age 15. I didn’t follow through with it ( I’ve created many blogs that were never published ) and yet years later here I am trying to start a fire in my life with this grand delusion that I could make an actual change in someones life with what I had to say. I tried writing about fashion and makeup ( which I love ) I’ve also tried to be a motivational writer but none of those things just felt right for me because my heart wasn’t there, I only wanted recognition, so quickly I became frustrated and did what I always do when overwhelmed … I gave up. Although I had given up I just couldn’t fight the undying urge to try again, to say something, anything, that was really me.
What AM I saying at this point? In this 3rd paragraph of this seemingly pointless blog post… I guess I’m saying that I want more … From myself, for others, from life … It may be that I’m not entirely sure who I am or what I’m doing or who I’m even talking to but honestly, I just want to change the world. I want people, all people to know that the world is actually a wonderful and brilliant place. That the realm of possibility is open to anything. I want to create and inspire. I want people to know how strong and loud they can be, how much change and happiness they can posses, how great this life really could be with a little faith and triumph. Maybe someday I’ll be that story worth reading ..